Living not existing

The most difficult phase of your life

When the whole world seems to be against you.

You wallow in self doubt, self pity, self loathing

You raise a wall surrounding you,

You discourage yourself going out

meeting friends and family

You start distancing from family

and go into a shell

You enjoy being a prisoner inside

Your whole life crumbling around you
and
Your life becomes a hell 

Your breath becomes just air

and

Living just becomes existence

Some days dropping dead 

Seems better than living.

But something keeps you going

Hoping one day you turn around your life

You pull yourself up

Or 

Some angel pulls you up

The angel can be

Your family, your friend, 

Or may be your kid.

You restart your life from the deepest pit

You rebuild slowly brick by brick

You take your time to gain confidence

to face the world

And just in a matter of time

Years go by and you become a new self

With all the wounds healing, leaving the scars

People around you will not know

what you have gone through

Even you may not think about it now.

But suddenly,

an image crops up from your past

All your emotions floods back

Reminding you how successfully,

You have got out from hellhole

You may not be as successful as your friends

You may not have fulfilled your potential

But you know

You fought the toughest battle of your life

And living to tell the tale.

More than anything else

You are breathing and living, not existing.