Long lost soul

We meet someone

We just click

Its as if we are just continuing from a distant past

We chat and talk

Sharing each other our stories

Our Joys, fears, flaws, insecurities

Feel deep sense of comfort and camaraderie

It is just pure unadulterated companionship

Minutes turns to hours

Hours turns to day

Day turns to night

Night approaching dawn

Time and space becomes a blur

and 

our breath start to synchronize

You and Me

When i speak to you

All i want is to see you

When i sit next to you

I want to hold your hands

When i see your eyes

I can see all the pain you gone through

When i touch you

I can feel the scars both inside and outside

When i see your lips

I can hear all the unspoken words

When im with you

All i want is to hug you

When i leave you

I already start missing you

You make me vulnerable

And 

Iam not afraid to reveal it to you.

At First Sight

First day,

The day i entered the college

with great excitement

and ofcourse nervousness

Getting inside the building after enquiring.

Walking up the stairs,

butterflies running amok inside me

Going to 

meet new people

Make new friends

Learn something.

Walked up and down searching for the class

Checking where my class is

Just crossed a class peeking inside

Some students chatting

There She was in a Green dress

Sitting cross legged in a student chair

Smiling and speaking with others

Ok, is it my class? Fingers crossed.

Students looked kind of relaxed and chatting

Thought maybe second year students

Crossed the class and went to next

Hoping that was not mine.

Yesss!! It was not..

Fortunately the next class was second year.

I was redirected to go back.

Again crossed the first class

Peeking a glance inside 

Looking for Her.

Wearing a green chudidhar

Her hair tied up as a knot

With a brown colour clip? 

It was something new i have never seen.

im registering everything with just a look.

Never knew in the morning

Im going to be floored at a first glance.

Knew that was the class but still went past it.

Trying to calm down a bit.

Finally entered the finest world till then

Wanting to know Her.

Everything was a blur that day except Her.

Her presence was felt by everyone

Including me who can be invisible

Infront of her radiating personality.

She was popular the first day itself.

Never knew the following months

Going to be the most intense feelings 

Im going to go through.

Loneliness

Im hurt

My heart ripped apart by you

And

My soul is crushed and empty.

I cant love anymore, anyone

I don't want to get hurt again

I hate everyone

Damn

I hate myself

I want to be left alone

I don't want anyone to enter my life

Im scared to get hurt again and again.

I raised a wall to keep everyone out.

I fortified my wall

With suspicion, anger, anxeity, depression

I felt happy to be in my shell

My wall become higher and higher

I have become lonelier and rigid

Lonelier nights and dried tears

accompanied me to sleep

Times flies away and years rolled over

My heart mended itself

I needed someone

To talk to 

Arms to run into

Shoulder to lean on 

Warm hugs to forget my worries.

I had raised my fort so high

No one dared to enter

and

those who did, 

didnt understand me.

None hears my anguished cry 

to accept me as me.

I dont want anyone to rescue me

I just need a companion to walk beside me.

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