Loneliness

Im hurt

My heart ripped apart by you

And

My soul is crushed and empty.

I cant love anymore, anyone

I don't want to get hurt again

I hate everyone

Damn

I hate myself

I want to be left alone

I don't want anyone to enter my life

Im scared to get hurt again and again.

I raised a wall to keep everyone out.

I fortified my wall

With suspicion, anger, anxeity, depression

I felt happy to be in my shell

My wall become higher and higher

I have become lonelier and rigid

Lonelier nights and dried tears

accompanied me to sleep

Times flies away and years rolled over

My heart mended itself

I needed someone

To talk to 

Arms to run into

Shoulder to lean on 

Warm hugs to forget my worries.

I had raised my fort so high

No one dared to enter

and

those who did, 

didnt understand me.

None hears my anguished cry 

to accept me as me.

I dont want anyone to rescue me

I just need a companion to walk beside me.